4th September

Can someone give me strength. I am feeling so restless , i just dun seem to have any physical or mental strength to do anything. Sometimes words are just like sharpe knives. Every words that yr the other half said might cut yr heart. Its weird that how things had turn out. Is it my own undoing?

Is it time to move on and let go ......... I shouldnt be selfish to cling on to something that jolly well doesnt belongs to me? My mind is so blank and my heart is beating so hard and strong to my great discomfort.

The scene was so familiar. There was the gate, the door , and the living room. My mind flashes back to that time. It seems like it was just so yesterday that similiar incident just happen. The feeling was terrible,the place was scary and its seems like a dark hole there.

The topics that were brought up was sensitive. It never ever occur to me that the topic will ever be brought up. Strenght is all i need. I have done everything within my own little capability to get things moving in the right direction that i felt was right. Maybe the vision and the picture we see doesnt align to one another. Is communication the tool that we have been lacking so far. Maybe Maybe....

There always a saying........... If only i knew................